“What is my purpose in life?” Such a common, simple question but it has a lot of depth behind it. I find myself asking this a lot. And this question can be more personalized to a certain aspect of life too. Recently I am asking myself the purpose behind me going to school. Yes, of course the purpose is to get an education, but where is the deeper meaning behind that? How is this education going to give me purpose? How will I allow it to give me purpose?
I definitely know that going to BYU-Idaho has blessed my life when it comes to my education because I don’t see learning as a temporal thing anymore. I love to learn new things, and I seek to learn new things because there is so much to learn and I can’t learn it all in school.
My purpose in education is not my reasoning behind writing this post, though, it is simply an example. I truly want to know the big picture answer of what my purpose is in life. But no one can tell me what it is, I have to keep pushing forward and discover with time.
That is a hard thing for me. I don’t want to wait to figure out my purpose, I want to know now. I don’t like going forward with uncertainty, but that is where faith comes in, right? Life, I have discovered, is full of uncertainty. Uncertain of how I may have made someone feel, uncertain of what these next few years of college will be like for my husband and me, uncertain of what I will do once I am graduated from college, and so on. The little things and the big things get to me.
Patience. That is what I need, that and faith, but especially patience. I don’t know how many people struggle with patience, but I can honestly state that that is one of my biggest weaknesses, right next to worrying about everything.
Our purpose is there, but it may take some time to discover, it may take all of our life. This may even be just a crazy nineteen year old crisis that I am having, but if it is not, I just know that if we keep taking steps forward, with trust and faith, we will find our purposes in life.